Ughgghghghghghgh

OK QUESTION TIME!!!

Why is it that whenever I'm on myspace I see status updates like this:

"i love my bby"

or

"txting my baby :)"

Baby this, baby that.

All in all,

I'm sick of it.

As if my "love life (you know, the nonexistent one)" didn't suck enough.

And if seeing those updates aren't bad enough,

try hearing the guy you like talk about other girls.

Now, usually I'm not the jealous type,

I tend to just brush it off.

But ohhhhhh man, this guy was just trying to push my buttons.

I'm not even kidding.

So whenever I see my friends with their boyfriends, I'm like, sad all of a sudden.

Ugh, why am I this way?

Just curious.

Oh and to top it all off,

try helping your friends,

on a daily basis,

to get through their guy problems.

Heck, I think mine are so crappy that my friends have to change the subject because it's sucking.

But the thing is, I want to talk about them.

I talk about yours,

I take time out of my day to help you not because I have to but because you're my friend and there's no better feeling than that of helping a friend.

But when my friends just change the topic mid convo,

I'm like,

"uhhh not done yet."

But hey, I figure out ways to get through my problems that way I can still help you.

If anybody is getting offended here, I didn't mean it.

This is my place to vent.

Whether you like it or not,

I'm venting.

The truth.

I'm not just going to sugar coat it and make it seem like my life is perfect or only show you the good things in my life.

That also doesn't mean I'm only going to show the bad too.

Life is too short to be mad all the time or be happy all the time.

Ok but back to the main topic.......

Do people like one another just for looks or personality?

Because my personality is just...

not ideal for a relationship I guess.

I'm a happy person.

Apparently, if you have problems, more people will like you?

Maybe I'm only happy because of my problems.

My life consists of problems and only problems.

Whether it be mine or someone else's.

I mean, I'm going shopping for my birthday and I'm counting that as school clothes because I don't want my parents to spend more money than we actually have.

We're broke.

My number one priority in my house is to not complain about not being able to do something.

But the thing is, we don't have a lot of money so I know that we're limited.

If you were there on sunday at the movies with my dad, you could see his anxiety.

He was looking for specials in the movies.

We never do that.

And it's the first time in forever that we were there as a family to see a movie.

So what I'm saying is,

I don't have the money to look decent.

I don't have the personality to capture a guy's heart.

I don't have many things.

But hey, that's what life's about..........isn't it?