hummmmm

Okay, so new post :)

I've been quite the depressed person lately.

And I can't seem to shake it off.

My birthday is in 9 days and I'm supposed to be happy!

But I'm not.

You wanna know why?

Because.

I think I've had an epiphany.

My epiphany consists of many things.

1) I realized that the only time I'll probably ever be wanted is if the police are chasing me.

And I never really get in trouble.

2) I'm losing my friends.

Not just because they're better friends with other people, oh heavens no.

They just hate me.

Because I'm so full of hate.

And happy people don't like hateful people, now do they?

3) I've never been called pretty, beautiful, or even hot by a guy before.

I don't think my dad's ever called me beautiful before.

I think he has, just can't remember.

4) I need to see a therapist.

Not my friends, although they'll help, I need to get help.

Professional help.

5) We don't have enough money to afford a therapist.

6) Will crying help?

Just breaking down?

It might.

But it takes a lot to make me cry, so...yeah.

7) I'm not cool enough for band people to like me.

BAND NERDS.

8) My life needs to change.

That's pretty much what's been on my mind lately.....

And remember what I said about not being able to have drama?

Now I have it.

I hate when that happens.

You want something and then when you get it, you don't want it anymore.

Ugh.

Right now I feel like screaming and talking to Carly.

She listens.

She listens like noone else in my life.

Sorry Angelica.