Today’s post is going to be a little girly today. It’s about guys.
Everyone wants to have their first kiss before they’re too old and you don’t want it so early that people would call you bad names and you end up badly.
See, I haven’t had my first kiss yet.
I know, shocker (not really).
It just bothers me that I go to the movies and see actors and they have two people kiss like it’s super easy.
Well, it probably is but I think I may have a little phobia.
It’s just that, I’m afraid of giving away something special to someone who won’t even care.
Yet, it’s something that I envy of other people and thrive for because before I know it, I’ll end up single forever.
Heck, I haven’t even had a boyfriend yet.
What’s so wrong about me liking a guy?
The guy always just calls me ugly, fat, drug addict, and annoying then just walks away with some girl he asked out at that moment.
Not that that’s happened or anything.
Boys are always on our minds.
Teenage girls, adult women, we all think about them.
Nothing means more to us than a valuable guy who will be faithful and be nice and caring. A good cuddle wouldn’t hurt either.
Anyways, these girls at my school all tend to go through relationships and life like toilet paper.
There are those girls that are stoners and drink a lot and cut every now and then who don’t have high standards.
Then there are those girls who are very preppy and can get any guy they want, especially the hot ones, and rub it in people’s faces. That’s all good until you break up in two hours.
All I want is a decent guy who looks put together and is preppy/skater-ish.
That’s not much, right?
Ha ha, there’s much more.
I like guys who are involved in their academics, like, they’re smart and don’t slack off, athletic ones who could pick me up if there’s a mud puddle, guys who aren’t judgmental of girls who may be a little on the heavy side and has a face full of acne, and lastly, I want a guy who isn’t caught up in drama and just likes to relax.
Blonde haired blue eyes approximately 6 feet tall would be great.
Actually, I saw the perfect guy today at the mall. He was really nice and wasn’t mean. He seemed like he was pretty athletic and he green eyes you could just see yourself in them. He had the perfect smile, the friendliest laugh and was just perfect! Sounds wonderful huh? It was. Except that I don’t live in Boulder, CO. Ugh. Why do people torture me??? Why can’t guys in Texas be more like the guys here? It’s so relaxing here and that’s ideal for someone who lives in a very busy household.
Anyways, back to kissing, I swear, I’m the only girl who hasn’t had her first kiss. Why? Afraid, anxious, I have pretty high standards, I’m introverted, and I’m not attractive in any way, shape, or form. Yeah I’m a nice person but that doesn’t get you anywhere. Nothing hurts more in my heart than hearing 8 year olds saying how great this guy was at making out. I heard that today.
It stung a little bit.
I haven’t even held hands with a guy. I’ve given hugs, but no hand holding.
Or cheek kisses.
Or footsies.
OR any guy asking me if he wanted to hang out.
How come Nick Schrack can get a girl even though he smells bad, he’s rude to girls, and he’s mean to everybody.
My sister was in 7th grade when she first went out with a guy.
My oldest sister was a sophomore but she’s gorgeous so I’m actually shocked.
That just justifies me being a sad nobody who can’t get a good guy.
Why I can’t lower my standards you may ask.
Well, I know this will sound shallow, but I’m afraid of losing what little reputation I have and I don’t want to seem desperate (although I kind of am).
You know what?
It bothers me when girls complain about two guys who like her and she doesn’t know who to go out with.
SERIOUSLY?!
And also, it sucks when a girl goes out with a guy a good 5 times to realize that she liked his best friend and then she cheats on them.
UGH.
Well, hopefully I’m going to be the ugly duckling.
I hate the fact that I’m so ugly that I get nobody, I probably scare people.
Great for Halloween.
Maybe I’ll turn out to be this gorgeous supermodel that people envy.
Or a trailer wife who lives with her 29 cats.
Never know.
Why do people only envy me of my intelligence?
Really, I want to know.
Is there nothing better to me?
I hate being tall.
Lucky you, you’re short.
Intelligence is something that you can gain so does that make me not special?
An average geek who has nothing interesting to her life?
That’s what sucks about being such a private person.
People think they can read me but what’s going on inside my head is completely different from the outside.
If only you knew.
If only you understood.
If only you cared.
Too many if’s follow my life.
BTW, I wrote this in Colorado. I couldn't get a decent signal to post it and completely forgot about it. So yeah :)
2 comments:
thats not true! (the part where no guy has ever asked you to hang out) i asked if you would go to the gas station to keep me company like a month ago and i thin im a guy (maybe not) idk. but ya.
Well, there's nothing wrong with wanting to save things until they're perfect. It's better than doing something you aren't ready for at first, then realizing that later, the perfect moment came, and it wasn't your first time like you wanted it to be.
And now, what is all this about boys calling you fat and ugly? People have serious issues if they must compare every single girl to a supermodel. No one is perfect. If that's all that matters, then technically, no one even matters at all. I can see beyond outer appearance. You're a lot more than what people take for you, and you don't deserve the shit you get from others.
I know it can be annoying seeing the fact that you might be unlike a lot of people in this way, but you know, it doesn't really matter what people say or think of you now, because it will all be worth it in the end.
I know,
I understand,
I care.
So, just keep holding on.
I hope I'm helping instead of being annoying, or just another one of those people who say the same thing over and over. >.<
I'm just saying what I think.
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