Hey:)
Recently, I've been noticing something.
My brain is weird.
I over think everything.
It has a mind of its own; I win/lose battles to myself.
I talk to myself quite a lot.
Who else can I really trust?
But anyways, I've realized change.
People change, yeah, I know.
But what about those people who tend to have that on their mind all the time?
Or when someone doesn't like them for one small thing, why do they have to focus on conforming so others will like them more?
Personally, I'm not much of a conformist.
I know it's about them being happy.
So if making others happy, but not yourself, go on ahead.
I'm not stopping you.
Pleasing other people is a disease in my book.
That and backstabbing.
But why?
Why is making other people so important?
There are some people that would say, "Oh because, I want them to like me, that's all."
I'm not going to lie, I've wanted to please people.
Heck, I love pleasing people.
But not in the way you'd think.
If I'm both happy with who I am, I'll cheer you up.
I'll be your friend; doesn't matter.
But I'm not changing myself.
I've been called an ugly depressed freak, sure.
Does that make me sad? Yeah.
Does it make me change everything about myself? Nope.
If I'd have given in, I wouldn't be on this blog anymore.
It would be so useless to even take the time to write things like this.
.RANDOM QUESTION.
So why do bullies feel like if they don't even meet their own standards, how do they expect others to?
I mean, not everybody can look perfect every second of the day.
Not everybody can be happy every second of the day either; some more than others.
Optimists probably have a little trouble with it.
Also, am I too random?
My mind tends to skip around a lot.
It's filled with so many facts and fictions.
Little things trigger those thoughts.
Which means I'm random to you; not to myself.
And, to those people that want to be random:
Why do you try to be something you're not?
You probably suck and randomness.
Be yourself for Heaven's sake!
God made you you because there'd be no such thing as genuineity. (Yes, I made it up, hush up)
Ha ha ha, but still.
Stop conforming to other people's beliefs.
They're called opinions for a reason.
Thanks for reading :) Enjoy yourself some fireworks tonight!
P.S. I'M ALLERGIC TO DOGS! D:
This sucks.
P.P.S. This, "I think I actually got to bed at about 9. It took me about 3 minutes to fall asleep, which was amazing. I didn't go to sleep exactly when I said I would, since I was writing an email to Jen while IMing with her at the same time. :P
Even though I've barely known her since like a week ago, I can honestly say she's one of my best friends so far. I really like reading her emails... for some reason I just feel special every time I see Inbox (3) and find "Jennifer Lab; Subject: Re: :P" among one of them. It's a curse not to be able to relate to other people or care. A curse that 95% of the world seems to have. I'm glad we're part of the 5% that has open eyes."
Makes me a happy camper.
Thank you Kyle. You made my month XD
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