...and bring your friends too.

Lately, I haven't been feeling like much of myself.

It sucks.

Nothing feels the same, nothing feels right.

I feel like life isn't the same.

Okay well, let me start from the beginning.

Ever since 1st grade, I've wanted to act.

Like, on tv and stuff.

Nothing gives me more joy than being able to convey emotions from words.

Well, a few days ago, I've been going through what I'd like to call

"Acting disease"

Which in my mind means that I'm being deprived of my dream,

being sick from not being able to get an agent or anything like that.

Research, research, and research has been what I've been doing lately.

I want to tell my dad that it's something I want to do but every time I get the chance to,

it seems like he isn't in the mood for it.

He's never in the mood to talk about my dreams or anything like that

because he may already have my future planned out.

A couple of years ago, I was obsessed with cooking.

But I still secretly wanted to act.

My dad keeps telling me about cooking schools and all that shizz.

The thing is, it's my obsession.

Acting I mean.

My family more than likely will support me but torment me at the same time.

I can't go a day without being embarrassed about my life.

My sister, my dad, everyone.

They say I'm too defensive and take everything too seriously.

So what?

I do, and that matters to you...why?

My family constantly makes me feel insecure about myself.

Why can't I be myself around family?!

All I want is to

1) Get a clear face

2) Get an agent

and

3) Be famous!!!

That's all I really want.

For crying out loud, why couldn't I?

My family is pretty unsupportive of me and only support me when they really need to.

My sister wanted to go to her boyfriend's house on my birthday!

Nobody in my family likes me, they just can't wait for me to leave and my friends...

I don't know.

Why am I such a hard person to please?

Life just doesn't satisfy me anymore.

If those 3(^) things happen to me, life would be SO much better.

I'm not asking for much.

Heck, all that stuff is FREE.

For the most part.

Ugh, someone, save me,

I'm sick.