The...beginning?

Well...It's been a while, yes?

I believe that I have quite a bit of recap to do.

Basically, I'm now a sophomore;

I have practically changed my wardrobe to Urban Outfitters;

I've been on two dates with two different people in a span of one weekend;

I'm going to California this saturday for spring break;

oh and I've gotten my first kiss.

Pretty much, life has flip-flopped and well...I don't know how I feel.

I expected everything to, you know, be magical and perfect; especially

the fact that I could've gotten a boyfriend. Twice.

My dad ruined the first one (which is okay because he was NOT cute or a good kisser...it was like kissing a fish) and I ruined the second one.

I was way jealous, lied to my friends about him, and was practically bipolar when approaching the relationship idea. So now we're just friends. I think I just got too excited and took it too seriously and well...now I've got nothing. Except for guy 2's friend and he's 5'4", a year younger, and our best conversations happen when we talk about aspects of relationships...It's weird. I never expected to get so far so fast. Anywho, this guy...he's kinda cute:) he's a wrestler and pretty blue eyes, and I dearly hope he hits a growth spurt soon :/ The only thing is that I can only really look at him and think that he's a kid, even though I had a thing for his best friend. It's safe to say that I'm very confused at the moment and I'm watching Glee and it's all about...SEX. And gayness? Hahaha. Anyways, I'm just focusing on not so much getting a boyfriend but rather, maybe attracting them or just being more confident with myself. I believe that if I have more confidence and stuff, that maybe I might be able to get a boyfriend soon...Pray for me hahaha