Boys and mascara...

Whooo, almost exactly two weeks until the football game! AHH!!!!

Excitedness is flowing through my veins.

So, as any average 14 year old girl would do,

I shall talk about he who shall stay unnamed. (Which makes him sound like Voldemort :O)

Wait, that's too much to type so how about...

Bruce.

Ha ha, nevermind, that makes me think of a penguin.

I shall name you Tommie thanks to a random name generator.

The first name that showed up on the generator was Lowell which is like, gayspice so yeah...

ANYways...

Tommie.

haha.

I talked to him today :)

Don't you just love how us teenage girls are happy just talking to a guy they like?

Back to the story,

I looked at his itouch and was like happy the entire time.

You wanna know why?

He likes the same barely known bands I do.

And I'm not talking about

how you only like one song by someone,

oh heckz naw.

He had ALBUMS upon ALBUMS.

That made me swoon. A lot.

Apparently he was in the same awe as me

because he was looking at me like,

"Oh my gosh you know them too?!"

And he actually said something close to that.

"Oh my gosh, you actually know who they are?!"

I believe is what he said.

So after that,

we're pretty much cool with each other :D

For some reason,

music tells a lot about a person to me.

I look at the music before I get to meet them

and somehow today

at band camp

we were allowed to listen to our ipods/zunes

so God, thank you.

Later on in the day,

I was sitting next to two people who I haven't seen all summer (they went to a different school).

They are both really nice people and they also like guys or are obsessed to say it better.

As we were talking about guys, (common subject),

I casually mentioned I've never been kissed on the lips

or cheek,

and I've never really dated a guy before.

After I told them that,

their eyes went like this:

O.O .

I was a tad scared at that point.

After I said that,

they start complimenting me like,

oh gosh you're so pretty and all that stuff.

I don't know why they need to lie to me...

Eh, but they feel like they need to make up for the

"pain" I'm feeling.

I'm feeling pain alright

and that's my shoulders because

I've been holding a clarinet up pretty high

...for the past three weeks.

The thing is,

I'm okay with not having ever dated a guy.

It's too much trouble

and I see what it does to my friends.

They end up coming to me

so what do I do if I need help?

In reality,

they're great friends

but they see me as this strong person

who can't be broken.

Seeing me cry will just screw everything up.

Which is my my conversation

ends up about the other person

(because, seriously,

who doesn't like talking about themselves?)

and that's the "end" of my guy problems.

Nobody listens because I don't allow them to.

My friends really couldn't care less what I do

as long as I help them except for Autumn.

She's the one friend that will always be there for me.

And that makes me happy.

I guess us dorks need to stick together:)

Ahh, this is why I like having a blog.

It gives me the chance to tell someone

how I'm doing

but I don't have to do it with seeming selfish.

I can say I as many times I want

because this is about me.

Not you and your problems, but ME.

Do you have any idea how good it feels

to say that for once it's about me?

I'm always interrupted by my family

and evil step mother.

They don't care what I say

because what I say isn't important

unless it includes die in it or suicide.

Thanks for reading,

it really means a lot to know someone cares

about what I have to say.

I've been typing nonstop XD

I don't feel like stopping

but I'll just save it for tomorrow at band :D

Adios muchachos!